You know what’s weird? Consistently characterizing people as “bad”, “evil”, or “ugly”, when you aren’t talking about axe-murderers, just people who don’t live up to your standards, or people who just couldn’t give you all the attention you craved, but still cared for you. That’s not evil. That’s just human. You may feel hurt by these people, but you need to realize that, by painting such a drastic picture of the past, you’re only painting yourself a bleak future. What will you do when someone really mistreats you?